All my life
I have been yearning of someone, who would one day sweep me off my feet. Love me when I’m normal and still love me when
I don’t even love myself – I know this is hard to find, because I know very
well there are times that I am not really loveable, and that happens a lot. But I am also proud that when I love someone,
I care a lot. Too much sometimes I choke
the other person. May not always translate
to love but I do my best to show I care and I love.
There came a
point in my life before that I was convinced that maybe I should stop looking
for that someone, I should just settled for someone I had at the moment. The head said Yes but the heart keeps saying
NO! Until I met you again. A year before
we met, I prayed to God so hard that I want to see a sign from him. I want him to give me a sign if I found what
I was looking for, “a kiss in the forehead’.
Which you have given me, you may not remember it. But I did and it matters.
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At first, I
was not convinced and then second I was scared – really shit scared. I know how it was to be hurt and I am very
careful not to go through the same emotion moving forward. But then I realized, If I had the courage to
fight for the wrong person in the past, why should I hesitate to fight for the
person that I was asking from God for.
If I wouldn’t I would not know what real love is. If I let it go, I will never have the chance
to share my life with ‘the one’.
So, who
cares if I get hurt in the process of loving you. Who cares if we fight a lot, If I cry, if you
hurt me unintentionally. I don’t care anymore.
I want to spend my life with you. I feel at home with you, it has always
been you. Sorry your heart is locked and I have the key.
